Straying from the normal home décor post today to a topic that I think a lot of people struggle with, but are less likely to be public about. Discontentment, along with the bitterness that comes with it. The two go hand in hand, and I struggle daily. In a blogging community like this, where home décor is the visual focus, I’m afraid more often than not it brings on discontentment. And while I have a knack for design and it’s fun to share DIY and decorating ideas; I want to be real in stating that blogs, Pinterest and Instagram don’t always give me the warm and fuzzies. Often they bring on the, “Why don’t/can’t I have that…” attitude. The struggle is real. And everyone has their own struggles.
The other day, from the backseat of the car, one of my kids was saying, “It’s not fair, I want one of those like (so and so) has”… The other one pipes up and says, “Well, sometimes God says yes, sometimes He says no, and sometimes He says you have to wait”!
Life lesson from my littles right there in the backseat of the minivan. Yes, sometimes God wants us to have blessings presently. Sometimes He says, not now or no to us. Even when we don’t always understand why, there is peace that comes with trusting He has a reason. And other times He is teaching us patience in the waiting. Patience is not easy (it’s actually super hard most of the time), but again it’s comforting in trusting He has it all under control in His timing.
I am going to open up to you and tell you that I have had this post started for some time now, but I’ve been afraid to post it. Because it’s personal and I struggle in this one area in particular. I am a renter (ironically, one who has a degree in interior design). Anyway, we rent our home, which sometimes has its perks… until you want to renovate something (i.e. the carpet in my dining room that my kids and dog keep spilling and getting who knows what on). And then the interior designer comes out in me, and I convince myself that I won’t be happy until I get wooden floors that are easier to clean and nicer to look at.
I realize how petty this sounds. There are people in this world with floors made of dirt. It’s so ridiculous that my love of material things, or the lack of them causes bitterness to surface again and again. It really is a daily battle that I face. I have so much to be thankful for, way more than I deserve, yet why am I not satisfied? This is heavy stuff, but I think about this kind of thing on a daily basis. My mind wanders to the, “If only I had this”…and again discontentment plagues my thoughts…
So, why am I telling you this? Because I don’t want to stay in this place with the discontentment. Who would want to stay here? It’s an awful place to be. I believe if I choose to meditate on the tools God gave me in scripture, I will have some victory over this. But don’t make the mistake of thinking it will happen overnight. These things take time. It’s almost like you have to get to the point where you are ashamed of yourself before you ask for God’s help. The good news is this is EXACTLY where He wants you to be. The person who knows everything can not be helped. God wants us to get our strength from Him. So, here is what I am reading right now and a list of scriptures to be thinking on when these thoughts come to mind:
Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
I Timothy 6:6
But godliness with contentment is great gain.
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.
And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
Those are just a few to get you started. It really helps to think about these as much as you can during the day!
And just incase the blogging/Instagram/Pinterest world is getting you down, take a look at this post here to make you feel a little better! Because here friends is what real life looks like. 🙂